Most Popular Misfit Words

Audra Brown

Guitars, Bass, Drums and lots of attitude

All lyrics contained here are

Copyright Audra Brown, 2007 ASCAP,

Broadneck Music,

unless noted otherwise.

Highest Level

So much noise yet it’s so quiet
So much time yet none to kill
It’s so empty yet so crowded
I’m feeling healthy yet so ill

I’m so confused but informed
I’m tired but so awake
Still the same yet transformed
How much more can I take?

I am overwhelmed to the highest level
Don’t know where I am
So confused in a familiar world
Trying to find where I stand

I’m not breathing but I’m alive
I’m not here but I’m next to you
So far away yet I have arrived
No time and so much to do

So happy but feeling so down
I have emotions but I can’t feel
Wearing a smile that looks like a frown
I'm in a dream but everything is real

I’m overwhelmed to the highest level
In a state of shock
It’s all coming together
Stuck in a lifelong lock

I’m leaving but I’m staying
Waving goodbye while saying hello
So together but uninformed
And overwhelmed to the highest level

Copyright 2007, Audra Brown

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Drifter

You’re walking down the street

And hearing your heart beat

As you think to yourself

"What does this mean?"

And you’ve been through so much

How do you stay in touch

I couldn’t do it if I tried

And I’m studying your movements

And listening to your speech

And wondering how you do it

Every day

See the cuts on your wrist

How do you handle this

How can you go through life

When you’re falling?

You do ever find it hard

Do you ever need a break

Well, here’s your way out of it baby

I’m your one way ticket

I’m your chance at life

Walk out and survive!

You’ve been put down,

You’ve been beat up

You’ve been thrown around

One too many times

Such a tender age

To be wasted on fear

Collect your things

Let’s get out of here

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No Cloudy Days

Letting go of the world for my fantasy
I'll be dreaming, you'll never find me
Happy in my own little place
Set aside from the human race

Settled in by myself
No longer an article on your shelf
Sailing through a dream every day
I've got a life and some place warm to stay

Chorus:
Dreams will let you do what you want
No cloudy days, or ugly storm fronts
A good view of the world for me and maybe you
I'll let you in if you want in too

Seeking no refuge, this is my home
Through the galaxy I happily roam
Peace of mind and beautiful days
In my heart this place always stays

Walking rainbows and skipping stones
What a wonderful place to roam
A nice place to stay for the rest of my life
No troubles, how wonderful and I know

chorus

One last call for all who want in
The doors will shut and the bad will end
A place in my heart secured for two
And when I say two, I mean me and you

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Open Window
(Audra Brown/Mark Brown)

If you’re thinking in a different context
Or standing someplace you don’t know
Then maybe you’ll get the feeling
That I’ve had since I let you go

Well it wasn’t too hard a decision
It was something I thought I knew
But baby it’s a different story
When that someone else is you

My love has gone through an open window
The truth was wrong about the open window
It’s not a cage
And it wasn’t made
To hold us closer you know
It’s just an open window

And if you’re thinking that you don’t believe me
Take a look for yourself outside
You can be locked away in a closet
But anywhere love will you find

And it’s just the same when it leaves you
Sometimes it doesn’t shut the door
You can never hope to catch it
You can only hope for more

Chorus

(Always thanks to Memphis Cotton Carnival Musicfest,

1986 and Vienna)

Skeleton In the Closet

(Audra Brown/Cara Clark/Mark Brown)

We laid out blankets

Laughed till we cried

Told all our secrets

Swore that we’d never lie again

Kisses behind closed doors

But you said you’d forgive me

I thought that I meant more

Looks like you lied to me

I’m the skeleton in the closet

And I’m dying to get out

You say you are not ashamed of me

But I don’t think you want me around

And I’m the most popular misfit

Being the troubled kid suits me well

Left another scar for me to hide

But I’m running out of lies to tell

You say forgive and forget

Is what you live by

Put that to the test

Just another lie

Just another lie, just another one

It was a friendship broke in half

By a roll of the dice

Everyone will choose to laugh

But one will pay the price

I’m the skeleton in the closet

And I’m dying to get out

You say you are not ashamed of me

But I don’t think you want me around

And I’m the most popular misfit

Being the troubled kid suits me well

Left another scar for me to hide

But I’m running out of lies to tell

You say it’ll be ok

It’s ok that’s what you say

No one will ever know

No one will ever find out

I feel so used right now

No one will help me out

And I’ve got no reason to stay

But I guess I’ll hang around

It’s So Hard

So many different friends

Leading up to different ends

Jealousy and selfishness

I just wish this all could be fixed

So little time to spend with each

And everyone something to teach

A little break or two

Would do us all some good

And it’s so hard

Being pulled in so many directions

It’s so hard

Never knowing which way to go

It’s so hard

So many things are being mentioned

And it’s so hard

Hard to ever really know

To each his own said

A very wise person

To each his own

But we’re all still learning

To each his own

We sucessfully ignore

But if we had listened

We’d be in for so much more

It’s so hard

So many different choices

Never knowing which way to go

So many fighting voices

Hard to ever really know

A little hope, a broken dream

But we’re all running out of steam

A little path, a giant street

Anything to guide our feet

A little help or a way out

But we’re all filled with so much doubt

A little word, one kind thought

But guilt remains within us all

A never ending story

But nothing can get boring

We’ll get along and we’ll have fights

Break apart and be alright

So many different endings

That could finally come

But we’ll all keep going

Till there are none of us left

Water On The Stage

(Audra Brown/Mark Brown)

The sun is trailing me now

I guess it comes and it goes

You’re always asking me how

But I think no one really knows

It’s like the river of love

It just heats up and flows

I believe in a power above

You think my innocence shows

Where do we go from here

I think I’m asking it right

We could just disappear

Or drift off into the night

Be like that fantasy world

That lies just out of sight

We could lay back and watch

Or we could stand up and fight

You throw the water on the stage

And I jump right in

You say we’re coming of age

I say we’re committing a sin

Maybe a sin is too far

But I know where I’ve been

I hope you want some more

Because I’d do it again

You got me down on my knees

Pitching pennies in the well

You’re screaming at me "please"

You’re begging me to tell

Well, the alter has no answer

But then I hear the bell

We could love like in Heaven

Or we could party like Hell

You throw the water on the stage

And I jump right in

You say we’re coming of age

I say we’re committing a sin

Maybe a sin is too far

But I know where I’ve been

I hope you want some more

Because I’d do it again

Let Me Go

With worries running through my head

What if they were to know it all

I don’t know if they would care

They don’t know that it is all their fault

So let me go

Set me free

Let me go

Let me be me

Let me go

It’s not too late

Let me go

If you don’t I’ll escape

I’m wondering what will happen

And your opinoin is running through my head

Like it ever matters

And I’m thinking about all that you taught me

And if it’s worth the cuts for everyone to see

Chorus

Too much time and too much pain

Too much of my life gone astray

You’ve done enough, don’t you know

Now all you can do is let me go

Let me go, it’s the best thing you can do

Let me go, it’s good for me and you

Let me go, trust me, it’s OK

Let me go, I just can’t stay

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It Wasn’t Me

An eye for an eye

Leaves the whole world blind

Hopelessly trying to find

Everything they lost...with time

But we gave it up for regret

We lost everything to hate

Trying to get back someone

But it’s way too late

It’s all our fault

That we lost it all

In the fight that wasn’t worth the fight we gave

And we pin it all on blame

As we cry aloud in vain

It wasn’t me, It wasn’t me

It wasn’t me, it wasn’t me

It was a mistake by all meanings of the word

But you still did it, would you take it back

It’s so unbelievably absurd

That we lost everything we had

You try and you try

To build your paradise

But it won’t

Stay up for the life of it

And you’re giving up your soul

For something you can’t reach

But don’t you know you gotta let it go

And practice what you preach

Breaching the gap

That we fell into so long ago

A wrong step with every turn

You gotta learn from your mistakes

And you can’t ever give away

The truths you find

On your way out of this hell now

But we all give up our faith

To have it thrown away

And it’s not fair

But we trust prematurely

But can’t you see this time is different

This time it wasn’t me, it wasn’t me

It wasn’t me, it wasn’t me

It was a mistake by all meanings of the word

But you still did it, would you take it back

It’s so unbelievably absurd

That we lost everything we had

We had a good run

And wouldn’t take it back

We had our fun

But that was in the past

You threw it all away

Kiss goodbye to yesterday

You finished us off you see

I don’t believe you dont’ believe me

It wasn’t me

Not this time, no

Beating the Rain

They drew a dotted line

And we all have to measure up

One mistake one time

They wanna give up on us

They mess up and it’s just fine

Cause they are careless

Then they watch us cry

And look down with disgust

Every little problem, every mistake

We get our tears

Hypocritical standards

Are leaving us with fear

Happens every time, All of the time

Do do da do, do do da do

You say she needs to know

That’s not your place

When you think I’ll talk

I see the look on your face

Does she know about this and that as well

If she doesn’t, I’ll tell

When the word gets out

Who knows who they’ll believe

But it’s without a doubt

That someone’s gonna leave

There’ll be a crowd

They’ll wanna know

Who it will be

When the word gets out

You won’t see me near here

Cause I’ll be gone

I’ll be out of swinging range

Gonna find the sun

Directed towards a change

When I’m gone

Beating the rain

I Tried

I look at you and you look away
That’s how it happens every day
One hidden thought down in my mind
How can you be so blind?

I tried to take you by surprise
I tried to just be myself
I tried keeping what we had alive
But soon there’ll be nothing left

I see you, you see me
You turn away oh so quickly
Are you mad or are you shy
I don’t have time to wonder why

I tried to take you by surprise
I tried to just be myself
I tried keeping what we had alive
But soon there’ll be nothing left

Nothing left to give
Or take away
And then we come across one more chance
It’s our last shot at this
Are you going to throw it all away
Or are you going to take that risk?

And as you think, time stands still
I don’t see how this is real
I don’t know why I should even care
Half the time you’re not even there

I tried to take you by surprise
I tried to just be myself
I tried keeping what we had alive
But soon there’ll be nothing left

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Five Times

(Audra Brown/Cara Clark)

Five years ago, everything was just fine

Five years ago, I didn’t know how to cry

Five years ago, I was so innocent

Five years ago, I always said what I meant’

Five months ago, I had new friends

Five months ago was the beginning of the end

Five months ago, I had it all

Five months ago, I couldn’t see the fall

If we could go back right now

What would I change

If we could go back right now

What would stay the same?

Five weeks ago, things started to decline

Five weeks ago, I didn’t know what was mine

Five weeks ago, my mind went numb

Five weeks ago, I knew what was to come

And yesterday, I felt so weak

Yesterday, things came crashing at my feet

Yesterday, where do I start

Yesterday, it all fell apart

If we could go back right now

What would I change

If we could go back right now

What would stay the same?

But it is now that we’re worried about

It is now, that we haven’t figured out

It is now, that we don’t want to stay the same

It is now, that we want to change